9:38 a.m. - 2011-10-11
But, not like \"Ha ha.\"
I laid in bed last night thinking all of the thoughts that still feel like guilty thoughts to me.
It was funny last night talking to Kyle. It was normal for us, I suppose. We hadn't talked in two or three weeks, but we didn't really have anything to talk about. Life is normal, same ol' shit different day. He's been gone for nine months and we struggle to hold a half an hour conversation.
When I was with Sean yesterday and we were laying in bed at like two am, he started talking to me and I jumped a little because I had started to sort of doze. He was surprised. We ALWAYS talk until the wee hours of morning, even when it's late and we're tired and have nothing super important to say, we still talk for hours. We can literally just lay there and talk about random things until the sun comes up, every time I see him.
It's funny, that's all.
